taking a step back…

the air around me feels so tense these days, like one of those times when the end is near. there were times when we had no fear and it was full of adventure.. when the world as such was not useless, filled with sorrow and scam. just for today i would like to take a step back and look as a third eye.. for a day

just take a step back and look at the unknown in a way it was just the beginning..
just take a step back and look at the people around you for they not who they are now..
just take a step back and look at the opportunity you had but not ever..
just take a step back and look at fear like it was racing from you..
just take a step back and look at fate like it was never meant to be..
just take a step back and look on the outside from the inside..
just take a step back and let it go even if it meant it was farther away..
just take a step back and pause your words before it could change your life..
just take a step back and feel the darkness at the end of the light..
just take a step back and walk away from what is holding you back
just take a step back and fall before you become completely insane…
just take a step back from suffocating you with your own self..
just take a step back and try to reach before they fly away..
just take a step back and feel the dreams before you fall asleep..
just take a step back and be conscious of what remains..
just take a step back and stop growing to senseless theories..
just take a step back and let yourself loose….

just for today, take a step back and see what you missed.. I’m sure there is more to life than this!

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my need to be alone…

As i stand here with my need to be alone, for my time of sanity, i keep wondering what it is like to be close out on the world.. this is essentially to get in touch with myself, to make my thoughts sink in and thrash some which don’t really matter. As i ignore messages and calls which at times hurts the one on the other side, i attribute it to my rather detached self and reserved nature. This side of mine needs no explanation to others as this is a part of me which requires no understanding..

Bored after a point of time with respect to people and things, i become a grumpy version of myself which at times become intolerable.. not only for others but to my own self.. The next day is a different story, after a rejuvenated sleep, the very essence of my staying and moving on..

There is a thin line between fine and falling.. i can go both extremes, where nothing seems like it can go wrong and at other times, i am dropping down dead.. Mocked by my own reasoning to both staying alive and drowning, i try to face my weaknesses.. Ignoring the truth that lies in front of me, I contemplate otherwise but in vain.. Lost in my thought, lost in everything, i forget where i started and wonder where i am now…

Mixed feelings one contradicting the other tries to fill my empty spaces just like everything else… Do i stay? What do i do? Questions that have been left unanswered trickle my brain trying to make a choice.. A choice which needs to be decided soon… and so it shall remain cornered and accumulated, buried and closed.. until next time!