my need to be alone…

As i stand here with my need to be alone, for my time of sanity, i keep wondering what it is like to be close out on the world.. this is essentially to get in touch with myself, to make my thoughts sink in and thrash some which don’t really matter. As i ignore messages and calls which at times hurts the one on the other side, i attribute it to my rather detached self and reserved nature. This side of mine needs no explanation to others as this is a part of me which requires no understanding..

Bored after a point of time with respect to people and things, i become a grumpy version of myself which at times become intolerable.. not only for others but to my own self.. The next day is a different story, after a rejuvenated sleep, the very essence of my staying and moving on..

There is a thin line between fine and falling.. i can go both extremes, where nothing seems like it can go wrong and at other times, i am dropping down dead.. Mocked by my own reasoning to both staying alive and drowning, i try to face my weaknesses.. Ignoring the truth that lies in front of me, I contemplate otherwise but in vain.. Lost in my thought, lost in everything, i forget where i started and wonder where i am now…

Mixed feelings one contradicting the other tries to fill my empty spaces just like everything else… Do i stay? What do i do? Questions that have been left unanswered trickle my brain trying to make a choice.. A choice which needs to be decided soon… and so it shall remain cornered and accumulated, buried and closed.. until next time!


What doesn’t kill you, makes you STRONGER!

Hello there! its been a while, remember me? This post when done would have been written out of words that came across my head. Whats the big deal in that, every post is made out of words.. right ? 

The answer is No! These are words that i have collected over a period of about three months. Words of wisdom or random gibberish as i would like to call that have interested me. These words which was worth noting went into my notes app. Today they remain as just a collection of words without prejudices, prefixes, suffixes or even explanation why they are there.

Conversations go round and round my head which obviously is not my fault. I just can’t get to stop thinking, which makes me wonder if i am just screwed up or do i have too many questions unanswered! 

Everyday i get to know myself, even better when i try to write these limericks.. i realise that i am still who i am in spite of all the variable factors that surround me especially when life keeps sweeping you like a disease!

A tearless cry, a departed friend, a stained hand, a killer attitude and an afterlife not worth wasting for… if all this doesn’t kill you, it only makes you stronger! There is no place for sadness or giving up on the so called “life”. 

The world certainly suffocates, both you and me! Greed and hatred, ego and desire surrounds us all but what do we do? The world is losing its flavour, what we do is try to stand up, pick up our broken dreams and try glueing it together. 

Face the world alone, destroy your insecurities, shun the sadness clinging on to you and give yourself a new purpose. A purpose to live, a promise for a new battle, an inner voice that overpowers and says you are STRONGER, than yesterday!

the internet has you!

before you wonder whats wrong with this guy and why is this an off the record post / unusual post, here is why.. this is a post for a contest “Internet is fun” by Vodafone, if this post brings a smile, then like me / tweet me / star me / plus me / pin me or if you have any other way to publicize then you can do that.. its just a couple of clicks or touch away.. else you can get me a macbook.. either way its fine :-p
internet is fun? really? fun is such a relative word when you think of it.. esp. when u say internet is fun on mobile.. that’s relative too. every equipment now available is mobile, from phones to tablets to even a laptop.. i am just going to stick with what i use. oh crap, i use everything.. so let me just stick to my phone and tablet.. is it wrong to say iPhone and iPad here? since 30% of them hate the guts when its an apple product, 20% have it as a status symbol and to show off, 40% use less than 5% of the features and then the final 10% who make use of the product.. 

i hope to fall in the 10% or may have already fallen.. if there was a day when i have to live without a phone or internet, i think i would go bonkers.. you seriously believed what i just said now? caught ya! ok, seriously, my answer would be no.. life still goes on and having this internet on mobile is just making things at ease.. what took days or months to do, now just takes seconds.. “the power of the web in the palm of my hand”

btw, how much do i need to write to get this post flying and whats the real essence of this contest? my guess would be for vodafone to capture end user ideas, capitalize on them, bundle them into something attractive and then sell it back to us.. well, it works, doesn’t it? we are making it happen!! :-p and what are we given for the ideas (which obviously can’t be patented)? things that i have mostly but yea, i don’t mind having one more 😉

a day in a life of a phoneaholic start with twitter to keep me updated on the stuff that’s been happening when i was asleep.. looks like i am the only one sleeping, all my friends are still buzzing on whatsapp group messages! move over twitter, its time to see the path and make some weird ass comments to some wacky thoughts.. multi-tasking at its best.. messages on whatsapp need your attention, who ever said, only girls gossip? some of the chat history would put the girls to shame! :-p “somebody is gonna get hurt real badddd”

blunders are huge and it goes online in a jiffy and the rest of the world is still active trying to re-tweet, like it and do all sorts of things to to make a nonsensical post way popular than it needs to be.. we do this too.. hype the unnecessary and leave the things that is needed the most.. we live in a age where poonam pandey’s undergarments if auctioned will get the highest number of hits than place that is hit by a natural calamity.. as i said earlier, fun is a relative word.. not that natural calamity is something fun, but you will still get some people to like it if someone has posted it as a status message on facebook, that’s the internet population like..
watching porn in an assembly (parliament), how was that possible, obviously the mobile + the internet = fun.. but with this internet thing, people just bring out their thoughts, their opinions and some of them who didn’t know they had a talent for writing just get amazed with their own work.. its a saga and like the old saying goes, the internet is like the clay, you can use it for good or not so good.. 

if only the opinions were channelized and made into something to make this a better place, to  make a change.. (vodafone this is a idea) :-p 

f!@# this contest, i don’t wanna win here, just trying to tell these people, we can make the change and all we have the power in our hands, right here, right now! think about it.. peace out!